Hi! I’m back with another discussion of my real life problem! I want to share a problem that has been bothering me for these past years. for your information, I’m 19 so I don’t know either to call myself a teenager or a pre adult (?). As you can guess, the problem relates to this. So! People around me are calling me childish and too innocent for a girl around my age, so do my parents. Though I’m fine with that, but I am not fine with what my mom asked me.
what my mom asked me is to change my fashion sense/ style to be maturer. This is what I can’t do (maybe for now). To be clearer, I usually wear a t-shirt and a short when going out to a mall. I think I’m what people called as a tomboy, though! I also love cute clothing, this allows me to shift between tomboy clothing style and the cute one. however, my mom or people around me don’t really like it. They thought it’s time for me to appear maturer since I just graduated from my Bachelor Degree. I should be more feminine, wear dress or skirt most of the time and look more expensive (with those branded things they bought me). But that’s not me, that’s what I always think to defend myself.
however, just now they tried to make it clearer for me, why do they want me to change my appearance. that’s because they want me to look more elite, to be accepted with the professionals community, and so on, which are good for me. They said why can’t I look around me when I went to mall, people around my age are dressing herself with makeup, heels, dress, and so on, why can’t I? I like to be like them though, they look so beautiful but I don’t know why I don’t really fond of picturing myself in those styles. I’m afraid to look older that my age, I always love it when people tell me that I look young.
I think it’s time to change my appearance. because I know my mom and people around me want me to be better that what I am right now. I don’t know how can I start since I don’t even know how to put on make up, I don’t have heels (except 1 that is for my presentation test in Univ) or mature looking dresses. Let’s see if I can change myself even though it’s not completely because I want it to be but for my mom or others around me I’m willing to change myself. I hope I can do it though I WILL face many problems when trying to get there.
Yeah.. that’s what I wanna share with Internet people. have you ever felt this way? what do you think I should do? Is this always happen to people around my age? Gimme your thoughts!
*Btw this post is made 3 years ago on my other blog LOL and since that blog only has 2 posts, I decided to just focus on this one and move the 2 posts here!